Yes you heard me correctly, I’m getting ready to kick my fat to the curb…Ha Ha. Ok, serious now! I really need to get somewhat fit, at least loose a few pounds.

I know doing this will make me feel better…if nothing else it will enable me to catch the boys when the run from me!🏃‍♀️Ha Ha, which doesn’t happen that often…and when it does happen, I make the other boys corral them in, and they seem to enjoy chasing their brothers for me…Correction, they like chasing their brothers, who are in trouble.

Fifty something, and I’m living a charmed, challenging life with my Daughter and G-Sons!! Love where I’m at and looking forward to where I’m going! How many people can say that!! I’m not perfect, not rich, not beautiful…I’m alright with that! Now having said that I’m not 100% happy with all of me.

We just recently purchased some exercise equipment to be home while we work out. You know as I’m typing this I really have to say…I’m not at all motivated about working out and watching what I eat. Why should we have to sweat to death and starve ourselves to loose weight?? Why doesn’t it just come off!!!! I really cant find the motivation to get on the treadmill and sweat my fat away. (However I really want to) kind of a tug of war right now!

How do you get the motivation to do this? I want to work out happily, I want to, want to workout! I want to eat a salad and crave another one. How do you find that drive, that inner burn to achieve your bike work out and then crave for that “burn” that is coming for your legs as you are running?

At one point in my life I use to work out with weights at a gym with a partner. Krystal was maybe in 4th or 5th grade. I use to cut hair and I was cutting a women named Jamie’s hair. She was talking about working out at the local college, and invited me to come. I was always been interested in using weights to work out and wanted the body builders body. So I joined her at the college

My husband was a truck driver and was gone for a week or two at a time. And Krystal was almost always at her Grandma Cleda’s house so I decided to do something for me. Jamie was like my coach/partner, she was very knowledgeable about fitness. We developed a close friendship while we worked out. Looking back I don’t remember having to force myself to go to the gym, I wanted to go, and working out was hard, but for some reason I didn’t hate it. I need that feeling back!

Now I have to figure how how to get it back! I know it is all mental. Its a mind game!! And the lazy part of my mind is winning. As I write this statement I realize how sad that is. I need to get in some meditation and find my work out mantra. I don’t have all the answers at this point. However, like I tell the G-sons…If you don’t know the answer, then you need to find it, work through what is stopping you from achieving your goal. It is time for me to practice what I preach!